I can't believe this is the last Friday in July! Summer is speeding by.
And since it is Friday, it is time for five minutes of writing. Writing that isn't over analyzed, just released. Just spending five minutes putting down the words as they form, and not turning back - that is hard sometimes, not the not thinking part, the not turning back to fix it part. But it is important, and so I will do it! Want to join? Follow the link to Lisa-Jo's and let go for five minutes!
Beyond... beyond what?
There are so many minutes in the day that there doesn't seem to be anything beyond what I am doing and what I am feeling.
Sure everyone who has finished this stage of parenting tells you to enjoy it because it will be over so quickly. So I try my hardest to enjoy it - enjoy the whining, the yelling, the crying for no real reason, the endless time spent pinking up toys, helping them pick up the toys, etc, etc. But most of the time, I don't enjoy it. I just do it. Waiting for that next phase to come.
Taking the time to think about that next step isn't worth it. Thinking of what comes next sets expectations, which means I set goals for my kids and then push them towards them. I don't want to be that momma - the one that lives her dreams out through her kids. I want to live their dreams with them. Changing the dream even over and over.
I want that phase that is beyond this one to be full of fun. And I know it will. Because even though this stage has it's moments of hair pulling and sighing, it does have it's fun moments. That phase, beyond this one will get here when it gets here.
And until then I will do this phase. And focus on just making it through - which translates as sighing in those moments of craziness and smiling in those moments of fun.